Helen.Xinyao.Zhou

just when its FUCKING SUMMER and i THINK for once i can spend it doing something I feel absolutely passionate about, BAM
FUCKING DUMASS SCOLIOSIS reality check.

According to some fancy ass german lady who had beeen ” REASEARCHING ” and creating “EFFECTIVE” scoliosis treatment…aka the schroth method :

In general, scoliotics should avoid:

• Bending backwards
• Twisting the torso
• Bending sideways
• Bending the rib cage
  
  At this point all i really wanna say is FUCK MY LIFE
  IM SO ANGRY
  LIKE WHAT THE FUCK
  i was fine before I found out about this shit
  and now its like OH BE EXTRAAA CAREFUL
  DONT DO ANNY BENDING OF THE BODY…
  
  FUCK YOU.
  Im SO FUCKING UPSET RIGHT NOW.

Strange isn’t it, how I always thought that I was over the thought of you. I guess it was just because of my surroundings. Like what they say, “outta sight outta mind”. You barely use ur online stuff like fb and I stopped going on msn. So overall, I forgot all about you. For the first time in a while, I finally saw a VISUAL an image, and it got me thinking. Not sure if it was because I still had feelings for you, or I couldn’t stop thinking about you because it felt like we still hadn’t straightened things out since that day.
But I did have the most wonderful, heart-warming…this almost glowy-tingling feeling kind of dream. That the things that happened was a misunderstanding. We were being stupid…and everything just worked out all over again. It was so perfect, It felt SO REAL that its indescribable. When I woke up, I wanted to cry. I felt like this was this inwards pressure on my chest.

I went swimming later, usually after a big workout my body feels exhausted but relaxed and I tend to forget the things on my mind. But I couldn’t help but remeber, and think of you and how we used to go swimming in that very pool and now I never see you anymore. Its strange because everytime I go there I still think of you, of that time you were upset and I rushed down that hill….

its strange but I dont know why…
I just really miss you.